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And What If He Doesn’t?



Hey guys,


Two posts in one day? Yes Ma’am/Sir! We BACK!


Hope you are all well!


Ok, so, can I be honest? I am getting so tired of ‘feel good’ preaching. Some preachers only seem to be teaching fairy tales and butterflies, and quite frankly, I think it’s quite detrimental. Don’t get me wrong, there is nothing wrong with a positive outlook on life (I try my hardest to see the positive in every situation and circumstance, rely on God and trust the process), but when the positive is all you ever hear at church and a life situation comes, it can shatter your faith down to the core, because you were never really built on the full foundation of the Gospel or the truth of God’s sovereign power.


Christianity is not rose beds and picnics. It not even really a walk in the park – it often times can be painful, tiring and testing, but ultimately, it is overwhelmingly fantastic. There are some times of pure rejoicing and excitement and breakthroughs, but there are also really confusing times, some times that really test your faith and resolve.


It’s because of this that I was speaking with a friend and I posed the question that I’d like to also pose to you.


... and if He doesn’t do it (whatever you have asked of Him), do you still believe He is Lord?


Many of us can fall away or become disheartened and lose faith in God because He didn’t answer us WHEN we expected Him too or HOW we thought He would.


I think it’s easy and feel good to say that ‘it’ will happen and everything will be great in every area of ones life, but what about if it doesn’t and it isn’t?


There is an expectation that what we want to happen should occur exactly how we envision or expect it to. But we all know that His ways are higher and better than ours, and yet we fall off because it’s not what we expected.


Just because He CAN doesn’t necessarily mean He WILL, and I think it’s important to state that God will do what He says He will do when He says He will do it, but also that whilst God CAN do what He says He can do, there is always the possibility that He WILL NOT do it - and we must be resolved to follow and trust Him in both experiences.


He most definitely CAN do it, but if He DOESN’T, do you still believe He is sovereign? Do you still believe He is worthy to be praised? Do you still believe He is God?


This question brings to mind Shadrach, Meshach and Abednego. In Daniel 3:17-18, they let the king know that the God they serve is able to deliver them from the burning fire, and then go on to say “But even if He does not, let it be known to you O king, that we are not going serve your gods...” It’s very humbling and important to know that, just like these men, whilst we fully acknowledge the sovereign power of our God and that He can do all things, we should also acknowledge that, should He chose not to do that which we expected - irrespective of the reason - that we should and will still serve Him.


It’s especially interesting when we think about ailments as well. Illness seems to be some of the hardest things to go through with no “positive” outcomes. My personal experience is like that of Paul, He prayed three times to God to take away whatever ailment he had (some say epilepsy, some say seizures- whatever it was) away, and God said no and that His grace is sufficient (2 Corinthians 12:9). When my own ailment pops up, I always remind myself of this scripture and remind myself that His grace is sufficient.


Even if He doesn’t deliver you, are you still in the belief that He is still sovereign and worthy of your praise?


Man, don’t get me wrong, a lot of the time it is CRAZY hard to just have faith when everything around you just doesn’t seem to be going well and God’s grace and sovereign power has to be enough for you. When the desire of your heart is not being granted, when the waiting seems like eternity, when you fell on your face and cried out to God till your head was hurting and you felt so empty of everything. When you had been patient for such a long time and just as you thought you had it, it slipped through your fingers, yet again. When you had so much faith that your loved one was going to pull through, and yet they still die. When you said in faith ‘LORD I BELIEVE YOU ARE GOING TO DO THIS’, and yet you feel like He left you high and dry. When you're holding onto His promises, but they just don’t seem to be getting fulfilled in your life. When you see someone else getting everything you had prayed and asked God for, and you still have nothing. When you keep remembering Him in everything you're doing, yet feel utterly forgotten by Him. When you feel like you poured out your entire self, and surrendered all to Him, and yet your life is still a mess. When you’re asking yourself ‘Why did I chose to wait on Him, when I could have done it myself and got what I wanted’. - Am I speaking to someone here? It is HARD. But God knows everything, He knows what to give you and what not to, He knows what need and when you need it.


I think it’s important for me to say that God doesn’t withhold things from us just because He wants to prove Himself to be sovereign. He has a plan, purpose and reason for everything He gives us… and everything He doesn’t. We often put God into a box and say He is one thing. He is our supplier, He is our healer, yes, but He is also logical in His thinking, He is loving and Kind. If He gave us everything we wanted ever in life, we would be finished, and He wouldn’t be a good father.


We can get so consumed by the fact that we didn’t get what we wanted that we don’t even bother to listen to the reasoning and explanation behind it. When you get that ‘no’ from God, do you just stop listening? ‘Well forget you then, I thought you were meant to be this, but apparently not”


…. Maybe you should wait for the reason? (Although God does not have to explain Himself or anything to you, He does help us to understand when we ask Him) – ‘I didn’t give you that husband/wife because you’re not ready, you will ruin yourself and Him/Her’, ‘I didn’t give you that job because they are going to ask you to compromise yourself and you don’t yet have the willpower to say no’, ‘that house has infestation problems they aren’t telling you about’, ‘He/She doesn’t really love you’, ‘you’ve made this thing an IDOL in your heart’, ‘My grace is sufficient!’– I don’t know the reason why God hasn’t done what you thought He would, but do you know who does? GOD. Ask Him and take the time to listen to His why. Are you willing to listen to His rationale and way of thinking? Are you not being truthful with yourself, and actually you do know why but you’re still angry?


We cannot question Him (‘What do you think you doing?’), but we can enquire of Him (‘Lord, why did this happen?’).


The thoughts that He has towards us are good and not evil, to give us a future and a hope. HE IS NOT MERCILESS. HE IS NOT CRUEL OR UNKIND. HE IS NOT YOUR ENEMY. Yes, it hurts to not get what you want or what you prayed for, but it would hurt so much more to get what you wanted and it destroy you in the process. It hurts so much more to get that marriage you thought you wanted and then have to be locked into a loveless marriage with a wicked spouse, who suddenly switched up on you on the honeymoon.


“For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all.” 2 Corinthians 4:17


I may not be healed now or even in my time on this earth, but I know that I will be perfected in heaven. They may have still died but if they were in Christ on earth, they are now seated at the feet of Jesus having conversation and enjoying His presence, with the angels surrounding singing ‘Holy Holy Holy!’ you may still be single but He has your spouse in mind for when the time is right…or you could die single. Not everything may go the way you expected or envisioned, but there is purpose.


God has given us the exact measure of grace that we need each day. He has given us 24 hours of grace. That is grace for every second of the day. Every second of waiting, God has graced you for it, every second of disappointment, every second of grief, every second of sorrow and pain, every second of whatever happens in that day, God already knows and He has already supplied us with the ability, strength and sustenance to get through it and praise Him through it too.


Thank God we are still alive. Thank God that even when my throat closes up, He reopens it. Thank you Lord because even though they died, they are no longer in pain. Thank you Lord because you know every tear that falls down my face and you hear every groan of my spirit within me. Thank you Lord because weeping may endure for the night, but joy comes in the morning. Thank you Lord, because whilst I am waiting for my spouse, we are drawing closer to each other and I’m spending time with You. Thank you Lord because whilst I don’t have a wife, I can focus on Kingdom Business. Thank you Lord because during whatever season we are currently in, You are teaching us, training us changing and transforming us, perfecting us and moulding us to be more like YOU. Thank you Lord because you died for me.


Listen, if God never does another thing for you in your lifetime, He has already done the most important thing for us, which is Jesus Christ. He has already done it ALL.


Sometimes life can be bitter sometimes it can be sweet. Sometimes I can be laughing, sometimes I can be crying. All times God is sovereign and all times, God is great. So in all times I will put on my worship music and decide to love You through it. All times I will decide to believe that your grace is sufficient for me. All times, I will remember the words of which you spoke saying that your plans for me a great and your thoughts are pure. You are bigger and better than anything I may go through. You are bigger than my illness, you are bigger than my singleness, you are bigger than my job and my house, you are bigger than the death of my loved one, you are bigger than the season I am going through, you are bigger than my grief and pain, you are bigger than this mountain I face, you are bigger than my ‘unanswered’ prayer, you are bigger Lord. You are BIGGER.


I want to end with this last thing, which I tell myself and everyone around me almost daily - We only have 2 brush strokes of the corner of the painting that is our life, God has the entire art masterpiece up on His wall, and He looks at it everyday. He already knows our end from our beginning. He sees the beauty of your life, He’s already finished painting it. It is up to us to trust the colours He’s painting on our canvas as we stay inside of time. The harshness of the red will soon blend into the peace of the blue, we don’t know how, but it will.


I really pray that you take comfort in the fact that God sees and knows it all. Throughout psalms, the psalmists show the pains of life but always resolve at the end that they will praise and rejoice through it. Cry to God and tell Him your pain, how its not fair, how much it hurts, how sad you are, how broken you feel, and then resolve that you will rejoice! – Put on praise music and dance with Jesus!


Love, Peace and JOY


- Lioness


I will praise the Lord no matter what happens. I will constantly speak of his glories and grace – Psalm 34:1

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